Have you ever been in a relationship and something happened that resulted in you causing the other party hurt and pain? You apologize, and though they are hurting, they say that they accept your apology. You all try to move on from that place of pain, but then every time you turn around they are reminding you about “the time you hurt them.”
Or perhaps they just act differently towards you because their mouth said they forgave you, but their heart just hadn’t grabbed hold of the forgiveness yet. So you find yourself in this constant battle to prove that you are really sorry.
Fortunately for us, we serve a forgiving and gracious God who really means it when He forgives us. He isn’t keeping score, and He won’t keep throwing your past sin back in your face. Even when we don’t deserve His forgiveness, He forgives us. So you can rest assured that when you finally come to the place of true repentance and tell God that you are sorry about what every sin you find yourself constantly repeating, He will really forgive you.
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. John 1:9
The problem typically arises in that we don’t take the time to forgive ourselves, part of which comes from not believing that we are really forgiven. God isn’t condemning us, but we continue to put ourselves in a state of condemnation which gives the enemy leverage in our lives.
Although God doesn’t throw our past up in our face, the devil will. Every chance he gets, he will remind us of our past sins and try to convince us that we are worthless, dirty, and full of sin. We have to remember that his assignment is to steal, kill and destroy. He wants to steal your joy, kill your spirit, and destroy your self-worth. The longer you walk around tripping on yourself because of your past sins and not accepting the redemption that you have in God, the longer you expose yourself to his attacks.
So ask yourself, what are some of the things that the devil keeps bringing to the forefront of my mind, which keeps me in bondage, although God has already forgiven me? What names do I continue to incorrectly answer to? Liar? Fornicator? Cheater? Drug addict? Overeater?
However, it’s important to note that many times, it’s not even the devil throwing things in our face – it’s us. We beat ourselves up by dwelling on the past. We become our own worst enemy, constantly reminding ourselves of who we once were. We remain in bondage to our sins simply because we can’t forgive ourselves.
God forgave us and set us free, yet we can’t walk in that freedom. By not forgiving ourselves, we become like a prisoner being released from jail, but who doesn’t move from his jail cell because he keeps rehearsing his crime in his head. The jail cell door is wide open, and he has been issued his release papers, but he just stays there stuck because he can’t forgive himself.
Sounds silly, right? But we do it to ourselves all the time. Forgiveness means to pardon, to spare someone of the burden of their offense. So when God has forgiven you, you no longer have to walk around carrying the burden or weight of your sin. Jesus took our sins upon Himself when he died on the cross, which made it possible for God to forgive us. We try to look at God’s forgiveness the way humans forgive, but God’s ability to forgive is much greater than ours.
As far as the east is from the west, so far has He (God) removed our transgressions from us. Psalm 103:12
Hello my friend – that means infinite forgiveness. When God says, “Son or daughter, I forgive you”, it’s a done deal.
No one can take that forgiveness away from you, so accept God’s forgiveness and then forgive yourself. LET IT GO.
You can’t change the past, but you can keep the past from dictating your future. Until you are able to fully embrace God’s forgiveness and forgive yourself, you won’t be able to walk in total victory.
“As far as the east is from the west,
so far has He (God) removed our transgressions from us.”
– Psalm 103:12